Turning our Tests into our Testimonies
April 8, 2020
By Jennifer Bruner
I wanted to be a mother for as long as I can remember. I dreamed of having the “perfect” family – a happy marriage, healthy children, a dog or two, and a white picket fence. I worked hard, followed all the rules, and thought I could control my own happiness and success. But you know what they say about making your own plans.
The past decade of my life has looked completely different than I thought it would. But looking back, I can clearly see that God’s plans were so much better than my own. Saying this does not diminish the pain, rejection, and fear I experienced. Those feelings were all very real, powerful, and sometimes paralyzing. However, I am able to look back on the wilderness years and be thankful for them. It was during these times that I realized how much I needed the Lord and learned to surrender control. He showed me His perfect love and taught me to trust in Him in all circumstances. As a result, I have been able to use my experience to help others going through similar situations. Had I not gone through the difficult seasons of my life, I would not be the woman I am today. I am stronger, wiser, and know without a doubt that I am a daughter of the King. What an amazing gift!
One of my favorite scriptures comes from Genesis 50:20:
You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.
God placed these words on my heart during the difficult years, and I have clung to them ever since. He has shown me over and over again that He can bring good from every situation. We are living in unprecedented times. So many are struggling – physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I am working from home, trying my best to homeschool four boys in three different grades. (God bless our teachers – they have a very difficult job!) I am worried about the health of my loved ones. I am missing my Mt. Bethel family. Seeing you at Connection Point on Sunday mornings is one of the highlights of my week! It is so easy to have our negative thoughts start to spiral. That is exactly what the enemy wants.
But, I have good news for you – our community of faith refuses to let the enemy win this war with COVID-19. We know that our God can, and will, bring good from every circumstance. Let’s open our eyes and focus on our many reasons to be thankful. For example, the ability we have to connect virtually with our family, friends, and coworkers; spending quality time at home with family, rather than rushing from one activity to the next; noticing simple things, like the birds chirping and flowers blooming; and laughing at our children’s creative ways to entertain themselves. I could write a book on that one…haha.
We may not know what tomorrow brings, but we know for certain that our God does. He promises to turn our tests into our testimonies. We can use those testimonies to bring others to Christ. What a blessing and privilege! We just have to have faith and trust Him.
I pray that God will help you find joy and peace in the midst of these difficult times. May He keep you healthy and may His light surround you in the darkness. I can’t wait to see you again soon. I’ll be waiting for you at Connection Point!